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Isn’t that how it goes sometimes? You’re trying to get to a specific place, it’s taken you forever, you’ve finally made it to the right street, you’re so close, but it’s a one-way street. And you have to go around the block or blocks yet again, and maybe again. That’s the way it was after completing this attempt (shown below) to bring the movement of a woman walking from the way past to the present.

I was happy with how some aspects played out: namely, the interaction of the curved and straight lines. But trying to locate that “street” again proved to be difficult, and, after many starts and stops, I called out, “Enough!” and chose to do some thing and stop the thinking about what thing.

While regarding my effort suspiciously, I began to work on this some thing. What exactly was the point of going ahead and making visible a concept I was not totally behind? I felt it wasn’t all wasted time, but I needed to clarify my understanding of the process to fend off doubts. First of all, I saw that it gave me a concrete representation of where I was at. In asking myself all the “what’s working” and “where do I want to go” types of questions, it was a resource to help me form my responses. And that’s it. I have created a portfolio of many resources. So many sketches, various paintings and cutouts, so much time looking and tracing, and looking and drawing some more! Resources to help navigate the tributaries of creativity.

Although this exploratory mode makes me anxious, I do see this time as valuable. I am being persistent. I am looking for something new that holds me fast. I am trying to stretch into something…more. I am at a junction. A messy junction. Hmmmmm. That sounds like a key word to me: junction!

Junction means a point or place where two or more things meet. Clearly. However, also, I discovered that junction is a region of transition in a semiconductor between a part where conduction is mainly by electrons and a part where it is mainly by holes. That’s all I read, and I became crazy! with the metaphoric possibilities of semiconductors to explain why messy junctions are valuable. Time for research!

Pushing aside nagging thoughts of my technological ineptitude, I google. And google. And then hit the google sites for children (I want my information simply explained!) So you have electrons and missing electrons, the holes, both capable of carrying electrical energy. That’s where I am at. I have my visible resources, producing and already charging. Electrons get excited. I get excited, and charge forward.

Then I have my unformed thoughts (holes) missing data, waiting to be part of the charge. Missing that valence electron! Potent, nebulous feelings and thoughts that are waiting to be united, to react, or to interact with, to be formed into that something…more-and visible! As missing electrons can carry electricity, so can messy junctions carry the potential to create something new and exciting.